I was fortunate to have Mason, a wonderful new friend, go with me. On the way home I thanked him again and mentioned that it might have seemed silly to him for me to want someone there for that. He exclaimed that he understood completely, and any normal person would want someone supportive around for that. It sort of validated my fears, coming from a person who is not related to me or hasn't known me for 30 years. I believe that when someone goes to a chemo infusion with a cancer patient, they come out a different, better person. It shows them the reality of what is happening. It helps put their problems in perspective.
This cycle will involve weekly trips for labs and twice on week one. The good part of this is that all cycles after this will only involve the infusion, with no extra trips for labs. My next CT scan will be when Cycle 5 starts in 3 weeks. The doctor said that if the cancer is not shrinking, the scan will give us an idea of how fast it is growing. She said in the meantime to keep focusing on my greater quality of life due to not having so many side effects, like before. And even though the treatment has not worked does not mean it won't. The nature of immunotherapy is that it can start working at a later point.
I'm still terrified. FIGHT ON!
|trying to read amid all the blood draws|