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Thursday, December 17, 2015

December 2015 Update

Teen Cookie Day at Cher's
It's been a while since I've posted an update to my cancer progress. The road got very bumpy there for a bit. After my 11th round of chemo, I completely lost my ability to do anything for a week. I suddenly woke up one morning unable to lift my arms or legs.  It seems the peripheral neuropathy from the oxaliplatin affected me all at once. For the past few weeks I have been basically learning to walk again and use my hands. It is a very slow process. The doctor said it can take up to two years to get my hands and feet back to normal. And it may never go away.

My latest scan this week showed continued shrinkage of the cancer. I still have numerous (about 20) in my lungs. It will still be a long road before the cancer goes away completely, if it does it all. There is also still an 85% chance that cancer will return in my liver. But I stay positive and keep looking at what is good in life.

I'm still unable to type. I am using this voice transcriber on Google Docs to get my typing done. I have pencils that I use when I need to touch the keyboard with hands. It hurts for my fingers to touch the keys. It is a threefold barrier. 1- my fingers hurt to touch things. 2- my dexterity is still very bad. 3- My fingers are too weak to grab and hold things. It will be a long time before I can do things normally again. For example if I stick my hand in a pile of potting soil, it feels like I'm sticking my hand in a bowl full of thumbtacks.

All of my trips into town are medically related. Because I live in a rural area, I couple my medical appointment trips with grocery store trips and other things I need to do while I'm in town. That usually also involves eating lunch somewhere, because I'm out all day. I'm also very slow in my walking, so what used to take a couple of hours now takes all day.

I went to Gondolas for lunch before my doctors appointment. Gondolas is one of the few places in town I will eat, as I do not go to fast food restaurants, other than Sonic. I did not recognize any of the staff there. They all seem to be new. Or maybe it was just a different time than I normally go, and the normal waiters and waitresses were off shift. I don't know.  I went to eat on their buffet. After being seated no one came to the table to get my order, so after about 10 minutes or so I went ahead and got a plate of food. Of course I eat slowly to because of my hands.  I ate my salad and then went back to make the plate for my entree. It was as I was halfway through that plate that someone finally came up and asked if I wanted something to drink. I asked for water. Later another waitress came up and apologized for me not having a drink. She said Kevin got busy and could not attend to me. Then she asked if I wanted something to drink. I asked for water. By the time the water came I was finished feeding. So I went to the cashier and paid without leaving a tip. I feel bad for not leaving a tip, but there was no one that earned a tip that day. Normally all through December I leave extra large tips everywhere I go. I did not complain, because I believe that does not help. I usually just never return there again. I miss the old staff that was there before when I would go eat at Gondolas. they were always attentive and talkative to me. Maybe the new people will learn to do better soon.

Meanwhile I still have my favorite restaurant, J’s in the mall, Captain D’s, and Sonic. Life is good!